Life as it is~

"It takes all sorts to make a world"

That's life

everyone is different

places are not the same

people said,

"When in Rome, do as Romans do"

yeah I understand now

whatever happens

just let bygone be bygone

into every life, a little rain must fall

I accepted things that run in my life

There is no garden without its weed

Always believe

There is silver lining in every cloud

I'm tired 

Luckily I have my small family

Therefore I'm...fine

But still, there's no place like home

Pray..always pray

Have faith

Allah is always with us throughout the path

Insha Allah

Love as always

XOXO

Mencari Pelangi

Jemari ini menari lagi

melukiskan rawan hati

gelojak jiwa

ribut kalbu

taufan perasaan

karam
lemas

di lautan imtihan kehidupan
syahdu

air mata pengubat pilu

lumrahnya insan

kala terdampar di pulau sepi

tiada akar tempat berpaut

tiada payung tempat berteduh

namun angin bayu

selalu mengirim rindu

dari kalian

nun jauh di sana

buat kami

bersama dua bidadari

mengharap sinar pelangi
Indah mewarnai

di hujung denai ini

agar kabus sepi

berlalu pergi

Be Positive

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah Syukur Ya Allah.. There are so many lovely things came..all the blessings from Allah. 

Days are getting better. But you never know what will come in the future..so just be positive and keep going. 

It may be tough in the beginning, but you can taste the sweetness in the end. Always be grateful and believe that Allah is always with you.

Last but not least, I wish you all the best in your life.

May Allah bless us in Duniya and Akhirah.

Love as always,

XOXO

.:The Dark:.

I don't like the dark coming to my head

It feels like a blanket thrown over my bed

I don't like the dark coming to my head

I don't like the dark coming over me

It feels like the room's full of things I can't see

I don't like the dark coming over me

There isn't enough light from under the door

It only just reaches the edge of the floor

There isn't enough light from under the door

I wish that my dad hadn't put out the light

It feels like there's something that's just out of sight

I wish that my dad hadn't put out the light

But under the bedclothes it's warm and secure

You can't see the ceiling, you can't see the floor

Yes, under the bedclothes it's warm and secure

So I think I'll stay here till it's daylight once more

Adrian Henri

Anthology of Poems for Year 4, 5 and 6

New Year, Same Me

Happy 2019 guys!

My girls will turn 4 and 2 this year. They are big girls now..oh, how time flies!

Last week, Rara was potty training. The first and second day was tough! Sorry not sorry, I need to mop the house 4 times a day..!!!(you know why) 

But the third day until now she did well. Alhamdulillah..I'm so proud of her.

We planned to send her to pre-school maybe in June or July this year. That's why she need to not wearing diapers from now. (^_^)

Do pray for us.

Last but not least, I hope this year brings us the best in everything.

Love yourself, love your families, friends and all the people around you!

Semoga semua anda dimurahkan rezeki dan di dalam peliharaan Allah..

Thanks for reading.

Till then,

XO!

Falling into Pieces

Drowning in the Darkness

Sad,

Fear,

Hate,

Alone,

Angry,

Scared,

Hopeless,

Disappointed...

.
All in me

Now

.

Hope it’s gonna be okay..

Someday.

X

Ups and Down in Life

Fairy Tales are just...

beautiful,

sweet,

nice,

perfect.

But in life,

Reality is cruel,

bitter,

full of thorns.

Remember,

Some people are nice,

Some people like to play fast and loose,

I'm tired,

for all my kindness,

taken for granted.

To whom it may concern,

I hope tomorrow morning when you wake up,

You will see the light in everything,

And not only in the sunrise,

but in the places that are harder to find.

Communicate,

Open up,

your heart,

your mind,

your view,

Open it wider...

**I'm writing this in disappointment. 

My husband and I are giving up with one of the people we trusted so much in our life.  

I hope we will find someone better.

<(-_-)>

L.O.S.T.

I’m far from perfect

I even not good

But 

I will try my best to be a better me

Forgive me for my wrongs

Hold my hands

Hear my voice

Touch my heart

Show me the right path

Lead me

Because sometimes 

I think 

I’m L.O.S.T.

New House

Well, My husband and I bought a new house for us to start our new life. We surveyed it about 2 years ago --> before Baby Nina was born. It is a Semi-D house with 3 bedrooms + 1 small room and 2 bathrooms. We're so excited! Can't wait to live there.

All the documents, lawyers and so on are settled and now the house is officially ours..Yeay!! The wirings, ceilings, and paintings are also done with flying colours. But there are no furniture yet. It's ok because we're not approved to transfer yet. But the house is now ready. My parents are the one who always visit the house and do the gardening. Oh, they planted many fruit trees like lime, mango, bananas, longans and so much more. Thanks mom and dad!! I love you.

You can imagine how I always "berangan" about my new house...hahaha

(^_^)

(do you think my husband will agree if our house looks like that? Hahahaha)

Well, that's all for now.

Thanks for reading.

I'm Back!

Assalamualaikum everyone!

Hey guys, what's up?! This morning when I woke up, I suddenly remembered that I got a "blog"!! HAHAHA 

Well, it has been 2 years since my last post --> dah berhabuk. So many things happened in 2 years of my life. Well, I got another baby girl (she's already 1 year 2 months old now..not so baby anymore =P)

Though my life now is so..sooooo much more chaotic than before, I always try to be calm and be positive. I just wanna be a good mom for my girls because I knew that they are always want me to be there. Even though I think that I'm not being such a great mom as other moms out there, but in their eyes, heart and mind, I'm a SUPER MOM!

The images describe me in the best way (^_^)

For my girls, please know that I love you so much equally. I want you to love and care each other no matter what. I pray for your happiness in duniya and akhirah. 

Well, that's all for now. I hope I will never forget this blog and will continue writing as this could be my 'diary'. Maybe someday, just maybe..when I was gone, my family will read all the memories about me and always knew how much I love them.

Till then, XOXO

Working Mom

Assalamualaikum dear readers...

Well..despite all my busy life, I try so hard to write this. At least, after 5 months..phew~

My baby is almost 7 months old now. Yeah I know, time is running fast right? She has her first teeth before reaching 5 months old! Now, she already has 8 teeth... I think it is quite a lot for a 7 months old pumpkin. It just that I must give my maximum ability as a mom to keep her teeth clean and perfectly sparkling healthy and shining white. <ewahh>

So, talking about being a working mommy, I think I just need a really "superpower" to make everything done. Even though in normal days, my life just being chaotic! Everything was upside down in my head...sometimes, I forgot what day was that day...urghh...

But I'm really grateful for having such a nice and understanding (plus handsome and good looking... ;P) husband. He always help me with the house chores...and sometimes looks after our baby while I'm doing my "personal business" (you know what I mean)

But, the most important thing is being a mother teaches me to be patient, be the best person I can be, and so much more positive things. But most of all, it taught me to love unconditionally...because a mother's love is eternity.

That's all for now.

Hope to see you soon.

XO!

First Time Mom

Assalamualaikum to all beloved readers. How are you today? Well...Qaisara is 3 months old!! (excited mommy)Giving birth was the most amazing thing that happened (it was like a miracle) despite all the pains (it was “unimaginable” until I experience it myself!!) I’ve been going through. 20 bones getting fractured at the same time! Can you imagine?? No, right? Masha Allah…all I did was praying for forgiveness and mercy from Allah…and istighfar. That was what kept me going (before I asked the nurse to give me the painkiller but then, it was too late)…but, I feel glad not to have that painkiller.Actually, I started to feel the contraction on 13^th October 2015 (38 weeks 6 days) when I woke up in the morning...but I didn’t really know if that was a real contraction or just “Braxton Hicks”. I just felt my tummy was not as comfortable as usual, so I just told my parents to go to the hospital (before it was too late). I called my husband who was in Sabah, working as usual. As a first time father to be, he started to worry (really worried and it showed by texting me every two minutes) about me and keep asking whether I want him to be back ‘NOW’ because he had his flight ticket on 14^th October at 5.20 p.m…it was 1 Muharram. But i told him i was just fine and he really have to not so worry about me. 
We (me with my parents) arrived at the hospital at about 11.30 a.m. I met many pupils with the same situation as mine…at the bilik pemeriksaan, we need to wait for quite a moment because many mommy-to-be were queuing to be checked by the MA and the doctors were “limited edition” (you know what I mean).While waiting and waiting…and waiting, I made lots of new friends ;) –hahahh...it was decreasing the pain for a while as we chat and talk about giving birth experiences à I was the one who asked lots of questions because it was my first time and I know nothing!
After being checked, the opening was just 3cm…so I was admitted for a night. I thought that night was the time, but still not. I just felt the contractions became stronger and stronger until morning.
That 14th October 2015 morning, i had my breakfast as usual and the nurse put some vitamins in a small saucer beside the breakfast tray. I just ate them all without asking anything because i was in a lot of pain. Actually, it was the regular multivitamins from the hospital that i couldn't eat that or else it will make me fells dizzy and vomiting. Unfortunately, it was too late.

I was pushed on a wheel chair into the labour room with my mum by my side (because husband's flight at 5.20 pm remember) about 2.00 p.m. Each and every time i had my contractions, i was vomiting at the same time…and all I can do was just pray for mercy from Allah and zikir all the time. And after a while…it was time to the “push” thing. I was just followed the nurses’ instructions. Even though I had attended an antenatal class for asthma and they taught me breathing method during labour, but when there was the time, I forgot to breathe! I forgot everything! Luckily I have my beloved mum by my side who kept giving me moral supports…thank you ma…I love you so much.
The next thing happened was at about 6.17 p.m. It was 14^th October 2015, which was 1 Muharram 1437 H, my darling little princess was born. She weigh 3.2 kg. The moment I saw my baby, I could see my husband in her…she was so into her abah…so so sooooo into her abah…and I was a proud mommy.

This is my baby girl minutes after she was born...

This is her now. Look at that smirking face...don't grow up so fast baby!

She is the best gift from Allah to us. I pray to Allah to give us strength to raise her and to be the best parents to her. And may Allah bless her for the rest of her life. Be a good girl, be kind, be a role model to your siblings, be an anak solehah ye sayang. Abah and momma love you so much!!
I hope one fine day, when Qaisara could read and understand, she will read this and I hope she will not feel bored while reading it...haha.
That’s all…see you!XO!

Biggest Gift Ever

Assalamualaikum and happy new year ppl! (It's still January..so consider its not too late)

Remember the 'bitter sweet' honeymoon? Haha..that was a year ago..and why was that bitter? Actually, it was the sweetest thing happened because i got my greatest gift from Allah..yes, I was about 3 weeks pregnant when we go for our so-called-honeymoon last year..

The holiday was great..but it was me who made it bitter. I had my morning sickness (read: all day sickness) during that time. I was vomitting all the time..moreover, the journey.....well you know..we went there by car. So it took hours in the car..and the feeling was..urghhh..

Haha..that was a year ago. I'm so glad I made it though it was a very tough journey of my pregnancy world. Well, being away from family, facing difficulties in finding food that my throat can accept and many more such dramas..luckily i have the greatest husband in the world who supports me and always be by my side..subhanallah..alhamdulillah.

Now, i am a mother of the cutest baby girl in the world..(a bit bias here..but forgive me, I'm her mom)

We name her ..

Qaisara Nur Munawirah

It means --kesenangan/permaisuri cahaya bergemerlapan

I pray to Allah to give her all His blessings, be a good muslimah and may her life will be full of happines and glory..just as her name. Amin.

Momma and abah love you so much baby girl!

Well, I'm glad to share my own experience of giving birth in my next post.

So that's all for now.

Till then,

XO!

The Wedding :: Iqbal & Xaxa Part 2 + The Honeymoon

Assalamualaikum dear readers (if any)

Today I'm going to continue my wedding story part 2 which was occurred at Bandar Sri Permaisuri, Cheras KL.. it was on 7th December 2014...

The ceremony was also celebrating my brother-in-law (husband's elder brother) with his wife too. So, the more the merrier! ^_^

I don't have much photos of it. Just enjoy!

Well, as I mentioned in my earlier this year's post, my husband and I are in Sabah now. So, we took this opportunity to go for our-so-called-honeymoon at Kundasang ;)

It was about 6 months ago. But still not too late to share...

Here are some of our sweet + bitter (why must bitter?? Later I tell you ;P)  memories..

So I think that's all for now. See you in my next post soon with some new stories.

Lots of love.

XOXO

The Wedding :: Iqbal & Xaxa PART 1

Assalamualaikum all..

Huhuuuu..its been so long not being here (well..since the 2015 resolution ;P)

Today i just wanna share some beautiful moments of mine..though it has been 5 months ago..

So, the events was.

.

.

.

Solemnization : 28th November 2014

Sanding (My side) : 29th November 2014

Sanding (Husband's side) : 7th December 2014

For me, that was planned and done perfectly even though "some" people destructing some of my plans (urgghh!! hate that woman)

But then, it was great!

not to write any longer, here are some memories..enjoy!

I'll stop here..sooooo ngantuk waiting the pics to be uploaded. So, the KL side will be on the next episode. Till then, see you.

XO!